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Saturday, August 18th, 2007
2:50 pm

I just wanted everyone to know, that im still alive.
Though i know it seems otherwise.
There is still a spark of imagination.
Its not as if i have lost it all.
Being responsible, Paying bills, Cleaning the apartment.
Going to work, Not going out, Not doing anything. Not getting stimulated at all(in all ways).
These things take alot out of me.
On top of missing everyone i ever cared about everyday.
Not seeing them in Months/Years.
Slowly being tamed everyday.
Anyway just know im still here.
And ive been working on getting me back.
There are so many people that i need in my life..
that dont seem to be there anymore.
This is my fault.
Or maybe its not.
But im going to work on getting normal.
Sarah normal anyway.
Because i have not been myself in a very long time.

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Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
1:34 am

What inspires you?

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Sunday, July 29th, 2007
9:56 pm

I just watched Pickles die.

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9:26 pm

My kitten is dying right now.
We have no car.
There is no vet hospital around.
They cant do anything but put him to sleep.
And he is going so fast.
I keep going over to him.
But i get depressed and i cant watch it.
His nervous system is shutting down.
He is laying there dying and i cant do anything.
This is unbearable.

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Friday, July 27th, 2007
12:19 am - A little bit

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12:13 am

My kitty is dying.
He has FIP.
Poor Mr.Pickles.

current mood: sad

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Saturday, July 21st, 2007
4:04 pm

So today is my birthday!
Ah well, it could be worse.
I could be 30.

Im going to Vegas in November.
Nikki's gonna fly there,
Im going to take the bus.
We're gonna stay with Denise.
Fun times.
Girls week in Sin City.

Happy birthday to me!

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Monday, June 25th, 2007
1:12 am

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Saturday, May 12th, 2007
12:01 am

Going to see Modest Mouse tomorrow.
Originally it was going to be Stefaan, Mark and I.
Now its going to be Grace, Graces friend, maybe Mike and I.
And there are two extra tickets if Mike doesnt go.
It makes me sad.
Stupid plans.
I dont even like Modest Mouse that much.
Im just stressing over Bs i dont need to be stressing about.
Casino on mothers day for Matt's B-day.
Such a exciting two days i have planed.

Ive been playing alot of Pokemon Pearl for the DS.
And alot of Wii Sports.
Which has been great exercise believe it or not.
Also the Shivering Isle expansion on Oblivion, which is amazing.
And trying to finish the Paper Mario Thousand Year Door so i can buy the new one.
I need to just play one video game at a time.
It gets confusing.

I miss you all.

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Saturday, April 21st, 2007
1:04 am - Mexico
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Monday, April 2nd, 2007
3:20 am

Two more days til Mexico.

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Friday, March 30th, 2007
2:40 pm

Five more days til Mexico.

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Tuesday, March 27th, 2007
3:21 am

Eight more days til Mexico.

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Sunday, March 25th, 2007
3:06 am

10 days til Mexico.

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Thursday, March 15th, 2007
4:41 am

Saw Rocky 1-4
Moved into apartment
Got 55 inch TV
Saw 300
Got a UTI
Stefaan moved in
Got wallet stolen
Saw Joe drunk
Off Boonsfarm
Wallet found in trash
Worried about passport
Spent $700 at Wallmart
Fed Venus Flytrap
No drugs
For months
No Crown
For Coke
Wisdom teeth pain
Too wierd
Too quiet
Cigarette and coffee diet
Insomnina back in swing
Coupon Clipping
Newspaper Reading
Humming Bird Watching
Lipstick Wearing
DS playing
Question asking
Ass kissing
Michigan Dreaming

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Wednesday, February 7th, 2007
1:47 pm

Joe's car got broken into last night.
They took all my CD's!
And Joe's CD's.
Mine were all originals his are all burned.
They didnt take the visors so i have like 5-10 cd's.
On the plus side they have finger print's
Im learning spanish.
I can say:
What the fuck.
Suck my dick.
I want to bone.
I bought Legacy of the Wizard for $3

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Friday, January 26th, 2007
5:49 pm
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More to come at a later date.

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Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
6:57 pm
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6:04 pm

Best video EVER.

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3:37 pm - His Dark Materials

Words can not describe how excited i am for this movie.
There are finally screen shots.
I will be there opening day.
Which wont come soon enough.
On a side note.
Pan's Labyrinth, also looks amazing.

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Thursday, December 21st, 2006
1:46 pm

Stefaan got me a iPod nano for christmas.
It's amazing.
Joes getting me a DS.
And hopefully i'll be getting a camera too.
It's been a interesting christmas to say the least.

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Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
1:16 pm

I am addicted to caffeine, nicotine and cannabis.
I am happiest when i have at least one of those
Elated if i have combination of two, or all.
Water is great also.
I can not help but to feel wonderful when i drink it.
Its the blood of life.

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Monday, October 30th, 2006
12:52 pm

Dear god,
Hope you got the letter,
And I pray you can make it better down here.
I dont mean a big reduction in the price of beer,
But all the people that you made in your image,
See them starving on their feet,
cause they dont get enough to eat

From god,
I cant believe in you.

Dear god,
Sorry to disturb you,
But I feel that I should be heard loud and clear.
We all need a big reduction in amount of tears,
And all the people that you made in your image,
See them fighting in the street,
cause they cant make opinions meet,
About god,
I cant believe in you.

Did you make disease, and the diamond blue?
Did you make mankind after we made you?
And the devil too!

Dear god,
Dont know if you noticed,
But your name is on a lot of quotes in this book.
Us crazy humans wrote it, you should take a look,
And all the people that you made in your image,
Still believing that junk is true.
Well I know it aint and so do you,
Dear god,
I cant believe in,
I dont believe in,

I wont believe in heaven and hell.
No saints, no sinners,
No devil as well.
No pearly gates, no thorny crown.
Youre always letting us humans down.
The wars you bring, the babes you drown.
Those lost at sea and never found,
And its the same the whole world round.
The hurt I see helps to compound,
That the father, son and holy ghost,
Is just somebodys unholy hoax,
And if youre up there youll perceive,
That my hearts here upon my sleeve.
If theres one thing I dont believe in...

Its you,
Dear god.

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Friday, October 6th, 2006
12:50 pm

I could be doing better.
At least i have my cat.
The cat I stole.
Everything is so frustrating.
All i want is a little comfort.
I need a hug.
I dont really want a type about it anymore.
Just retreat back into my self.
At least I listen to me.

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Monday, September 18th, 2006
12:08 am

the carls jr. "mutant burger"
im downloading fast food nation
a book
i AM a fucking nerd
ryan IM'ed me
he was pre-doug
damn that was so long ago
i just cant let go
i have a headache
i'm sick of doing the same thing every day
crappy work life
crappy home life
grace rescued us from joe's parents
joe's parents rescuing us from grace
these circle drive me made
love hate
life death
all i ever see are connections
and numbers
everything is connected
by numbers
how do you escape connecting
the world is over run
or numbers
everything = something else
it all adds up
i blame jaeger for reminding me
i'm losing my mind

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Friday, September 15th, 2006
4:12 pm

What i think God MENT to say was..

I got a gopher high.
Just for the bragging rights.

Let Me Out!

Drinking alot of coffee.
Watching alot of UFC.
Cleaning, Cooking.
Morning sex is good.
Boyfriend is MIA.

God i've been so...
One dimensional.

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Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
6:38 pm

MOM: "I was thinking about going to the Caribbean..."
ME: "How does this involve me?"
MOM: "...I was hoping you would go."
I thought she wanted me to baby sit.

I'd like Joe to go.
I'll see what mom thinks about that.

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Thursday, September 7th, 2006
2:08 pm

I told Ted "I'm sorry to hear about your brother".
He said "What do you mean?"
Why did i have to be the one to tell him.
Why did it have to happen that way.

I know who i used to be.
I know who i want to be.
I do not know who i am.

My body doesn't feel real to me.
I feel locked inside my brian.
Always looking out the window.
Always looking..
I lost all communication skills.
I know how to carry on from day to day.
But ive spent so much time worrying about other people.
That i don't even know who ive become.
There are a few things
From my past that i hold onto.
That still excite me.
Things i feel passionate about.
They're always on the back burner.
Other peoples needs before my own.
"Is this good for ME?".
"Is this what I want?".
"What do I want?".
These questions find there way into my thoughts.
But i never answer.
They turn into.
"Is this good for THEM?".
"I this what THEY want?".
"What do THEY want?".
I need to love myself more.
I need to worry about myself.
I need to learn who i am.

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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
6:40 pm

Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.

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Monday, September 4th, 2006
1:04 am


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